I put all your shit in a bag
It’s out of sight and I can be mad
I’ve never been done so dirty
What a lonely world you must live in
Myself, I live in Paradise City
On my worst days I still won’t give in
being cruel for the sake of doing it?
Living in a world with pain all around?
I choose moving forward, eyes on the prize
If memories are all I’ll have
I won’t idealise
How silly I looked! Oh, I must have
What a game you play
I was in the bag
Ready to go with you, all the way
and now, all that’s left of you
Is in a bag.
It’s the ever popular hump day and I am planning my weekend, unless I’m forgetting something, I’ll be in most of the time – working on my future. I’m laying the groundwork for freelance work and a career change, that is in an industry that is sometimes seasonal and definitely a feast or famine situation. Fortunately for me, my skillset is vast and I can spread myself across several things to keep afloat once I “fire my boss”. It’s a five year plan currently – but we all know how these things go sometimes. I could get very lucky and my freelance work take off – getting me there faster, or the alternative which we just won’t talk about because, let’s be honest, I’m on that hustle.
I have yet to fully commit to something that wasn’t successful. Outside of human relationships of course. Work, how to give people what they need so they’ll pay me – I can figure out how to make people exceedingly happy.
I know A LOT of people that want more than they have – but rather than do anything about it, they settle in to complacency and piss and moan about it constantly. Ships that don’t come in, lottery tickets that didn’t win, jobs they didn’t get, grades they couldn’t make……there’s always something. Sure, there are some things we just aren’t going to be able to do, gotta make your peace with that and move on. I’ll never be president – you probably won’t either, if you aspired for such a thing, I highly doubt you’d be lurking around these parts.
I would like nothing more than to spend my weekend goofing off, I did that last Saturday and wasted some time that could have been better spent towards my endeavors. (But I did watch some pretty good movies, all told.) It’s been several years since I built out a website and I had forgotten how time intensive it can be..when you’re a perfectionist anyway.
Who knew I’d be planning a move to self employment at my age? I kinda wish I had…
I’m sitting in the park, looking at the bare trees and the ground maintenance people mowing the grass. This is one of the bigger parks in the area and it is gorgeous to drive through.
I needed the serenity today. It seems no matter how I try to stay mindful of the little things to appreciate, I forget them in favor of bigger problems that surely need my brain power to be worrying over them. Right?
There aren’t a lot of things I want in this life, but the few that I do, I want badly. I want a big love, I want to travel, I want to grow old and see what becomes of my son. The rest of the things I desire are just window dressing.
Last year was an extremely disheartening year, and while we are nearly through the first quarter of the year, I’m still shaking the after effects. As I predicted, 2015 has already been much better, thankfully!
Squat it out!
Shut up and squat!
Oh my quad!
Oh my gawd becky, look at her squat!
These are all things I think to myself when I’m working out, every workout unless it’s only abs day includes squats for me (these are rare, lazy days). I use them to warm up, I do a high number as a workout, I squat with weights on leg day, I do squats to get my blood pumping and wake up during the afternoon slump. I just started my fourth squat challenge. I like squats.
It’s not obvious is it? Not for nothing, in the beginning – the first week of my first challenge, I was non plussed. Sore as hell, cursing myself every time I had to pee or sit, or get up.
Cant Work, Because Squats
However, I was committed to making big changes in my life and wanted to start somewhere, and picking that body part, was pure vanity. I’ve never had an ass. When all is said and done, I want more than my biceps to be poppin’ if ya know what I mean…wink wink, nudge nudge.
Being endowed as I am, I want all my curves to be like POW! BOOM! and people are all, WHAT? Yeah. I digress, ahem… Monday (three days ago) I started my fourth squat challenge, I’ve done the same one each time, I like it that much.
This time I posted about it being Day 1 on facebook, however I left it open ended and invited anyone to join me. I’m very vocal about my activity and have been since Fall of last year. I hashtag all my workout tweets and facebook posts with #DoWork. Currently there are 8 people doing this challenge with me, which is SO exciting that other people are getting motivated to move it! They are literally moving their asses every day because I motivated them to commit to this challenge. THIS PLEASES MOUTHYGIRL.
I’ve had people private message me and tell me how my posts encourage and inspire them and they appreciate how vocal I am about it. These things warm my heart like nothing else. What I want to tell everyone is, I’m not doing this for you. If you benefit from it – that’s fantastic. If I get you moving, even better! If you make life changes because I am, did or will – I am thrilled. FOR YOU.
Whatever your impetus to change, whatever gets you off the couch/bed/seating contraption of choice, I don’t care… Just MOVE.
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