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Bucket List

We all start out with these grand ideas of conquering the world and this ideal that everyone will love us and the reality is that few of us are wildly successful.

What we are, even if not wildly successful, is successful at achieving satisfaction, a middle ground between you and your dreams that you deem achievable and successful, on your terms.

Wherever you are in life, you want to be there because if you didn’t you would motivate yourself to get out of that situation.

I don’t have what they call a bucket list but I do have a few long term goals that I hope to achieve. Last year for the first time in over ten years I found myself without a job and launched from my comfort zone. To say that scared me is a not nearly a glimpse at the overwhelming difference that made in how I see things.

Sadly a lot of it feels age related but at the same time, I’m now more at peace with myself than even five years ago. I’m a bit less tolerant of drama and bullshit now than I used to be which is quickly igniting a temper I wasn’t aware that I had.

I said all that to say this, I didn’t make any resolutions because that’s stupid I never keep them, I do better with a daily to do list. (Read:not well). But for the first time in several years, I’m taking a road trip through the north end of Texas, through Oklahoma and into Kansas.

Its time I started seeing this countryside.

I’m excited about it and want to plan another before the end of the year. Any suggestions?

Tags: road trip, sights, traveling

G1 Wallpapers Retro Edition

Over the weekend I was playing in photoshop with some photos and making some backgrounds for my G1 and I thought since I like them certainly one or two more G1 owners might like them too, so they follow. Simple I know but it was fun.

There are a few that aren’t retro but I wanted them so I’ll throw them up too.

striped sideways

Tags: g1, iphone, retro, wallpaper

Grammy’s…WTF? That’s still on?

I don’t know about you but I could frankly care less who has the best music video of the year or who’s got the best rock album. They never award the people I like the best anyway. Shallow reasoning? Yeah probably. Do I care? No, I don’t.

So last night I stayed off Twitter and Facebook because I knew the social networks would be all aflutter with the Grammy crap.

If you watched, what do you gain, is it really entertaining or do you watch because you want to talk about it? I know I know, different strokes for different folks but I just………don’t get it.

I’m bored with celebrating celebrities (notice the remarkable similarity there). I don’t think independent music gets enough radio play but that’s a whole separate topic.

Really, I’ve had enough of the same old actors on tv and movies too. When I see a movie I don’t want to have the 12 other movies I’ve seen you in running through my head.

The exception is the funny movies with comedians, I always like those because they’re always just funny, that’s the part – funny. The romantic comedies are okay but they’re a dime a dozen, I like the ones out of Happy Madison or from Kevin Smith but I’m bored with Drew Barrymore, I can’t shake the screaming kid image from E.T.

I LOVE comedy…love it, nothing better and I can’t get enough of it, you should check out my favorites like Katt Williams, Daniel Tosh, Mark Britton, Patton Oswalt..and the guy that does WebSoup on G4 I need to look him up…I could go on but that’s enough to keep you busy on the internets for a little while.

Yeah, so over the Grammy’s, Comedy Central needs as many channels as MTV.

Tags: Actors, Comedians, Grammy's, Musicians

Mortality and Facing It

I was visiting with my Dad a few days ago when he announced that he has Early Onset Alzheimers and that he’s taking medication but that he feels it will end badly. I knew he had it, he just was finally diagnosed and accepting treatment for it. He had a stroke a year and a half ago and it’s been rough since then. It changed him, he’s working still and is amazed that he can and still does it well but when you’ve been doing something all your life, it’s second nature.

When I was younger my Dad always seemed immortal to me, I know I’m not the only one who thought that way about their Dad. He was my hero for a long time, the big guy that could fix any car, with so many people into cars, I tried to absorb as much knowledge about them as I could, sadly it didn’t stick.

I’ve taken for granted that my family is getting older, I am self involved and caught up in my own little world so much that I forget sometimes that my time here is short, I don’t have a lot to spare and definitely not any to waste.

I hurt inside that he’s so fearful of the outcome that faces him. I see the fear in his eyes, the terror at losing control, forgetting the things that he’s known and having watched my Grandmother’s memory fade until she didn’t even recognize him, I don’t blame him for being so terrified, I’m terrified.

Folks, it’s a real bitter pill for me to swallow, I love my Dad and I love my Mom and everyone in my family even though I’ve been a contentious bitch to them all at some time or for a period of time, I love them and want them to be here forever and no matter what I hope they all know that.

I don’t like seeing my Dad like that, especially since I’m not in a position to help financially if necessary – that freaks me out a lot.

Do you have severe illness in your family? How are you coping? Please discuss.

Tags: bitter pill, cars, dad, early onset alzheimers, family illness, fear, grandmother, hero, illness, long time, losing control, medication, memory, mom, mortality, second nature, stroke, terror

Push It

I’ve been guilty of dropping the ball on projects I’ve started, so far none of my unfinished business has been a big deal. Thankfully.

There are a few things I have had as long term goals and I overall my bigger goals have always been in the back of my mind, pushing me to work harder, learn new things and take risks. I’ve steadily made progress towards my goals and have even reached a few personal milestones. Motivation is key.

Motivation is a word that sounds much more complicated than it really is, its made to sound like this daunting mountain “motivation” that has two sides and both are uphill.

Do you want things? Have you worked to get things before? Of course you have. Look who’s motivated!

It really is that simple.

If you want to achieve your goals, there are some basic rules that must be observed. Don’t act like a know it all because you don’t know it ALL, ask questions when you get the opportunity of the people who are where you want to be, emulate them and realise they too are human.

Be real, be you and work hard. Not everyone can be born into a wealthy family, define wealthy in your terms and go get it.

I’m still working to get to my goals, and I will reach them one by one, my methods are proven and working.

What are you’re major goals, your terms of success? I’m guilty of not giving myself credit, are you? Do you hold out on praising yourself for your achievements even when someone else recognizes you for them?

Tags: credit, goals, motivation, pushing it, success

Filing Taxes

It’s that time of year when everyone is getting W2’s in the mail and thinking about the….IRS.

Well, tax time for me hasn’t been the bane of my existence it is for some of you, because it’s not like I’m making mad bank, I get by. So tax time for me usually means I’ll get a little bit back and that’s nice.

After doing my taxes last night and preparing to do J’s taxes tonight, I did the numbers and realized that last year was rougher than I really thought, I’m glad I have a positive mindset because if I’d been realistic about my unemployed situation and J’s reduced work time situation I might have lost my mind. We lost $10,000.00 last year.

When that realization hit me I was shocked, I hadn’t expected that. So to 2009, good riddance, I won’t miss that year at all, I’ll never forget it ever but I certainly never want to go through that crap again. So here’s my gift to you, the cycle that the IRS is paying out on…you know in case you’re getting a little back too.

Just so you guys know, if you go to IRS.gov you can see if you qualify to file your taxes for free, all you need are your w2’s and your children’s information if you’re claiming any, it’s really easy to file online, I’d recommend H&R Block because of their guarantee and I’ve been using them for several years and they’re system is really easy to use.

Smile!

Tags: 2009 tax season, direct deposit, filing taxes, good riddance, irs, refund chart, refund check, tax, tax refund, tax time, taxes, when will i get my tax refund

It’s My Blog and I’ll Whine if I Want to

Pssst.

Psssssssst!

Is anybody here?

(echo)

(echo)

Good. Fuck Wednesday. Fuck every day of the week and fuck traffic! Last night a 20 minute detour on the way home turned into an hour. AN HOUR!

Some dumbass crashed into another on a 2 lane highway. Genius! I had my car in park on the freeway. What’s worse is I’m having car problems and when I idle, the engine will miss and act like its going to die. Fortunately in park it doesn’t do that.

But holy shitballs, I was in park on the highway! I’ve managed to make it thru life so far having only had one accident when a dumbass old man pulled out in front of me on a rainy day, what is wrong with you people out there? The roads are not the place to play demo derby!

Dumbasses.

Anybody here yet?

HELLO?

(echo)

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Heh. Glad I got that off my chest. What’s your worst traffic story?

Tags: demolition derby, rush hour, traffic

Getting Dressed Up for Walmart

I got this from my husband in email and had to share it, it’s hilarious!

Gotta love ole DJ

Tags: dollar palace, dressing up for walmart, funny ad, hilarious, walmart

Holding Back the Years

My mom posted some pictures on her Facebook page of our family, during mine and my sisters childhood and some of her and other family members.

I spend every day looking forward at what’s ahead and trying to plan for it as best I can. I don’t think much of the past because….well there it is and there it was, frankly I don’t remember much and some of the things I remember I wish I didn’t. By no means do I believe my life to have been horrible. I wasn’t a cute kid, I was a huge nerd but not a smart nerd, that was the funny part.

It all reminds me of innocence and how much you don’t know about the world as a kid, how clueless you are to real world things and of course, then there’s the idealized views you have of being a grown up. Boy is this shit overrated!

For instance, when I was 12 I got on the bus for Jr. High and I, like a few other girls, had started growing my lady lumps, which was strange for me but I didn’t know that I wasn’t the only one affecvted by this… I sat down next to a classmate named Alvin, (I remember his name only because of those stupid chipmunks and because he creeped me out) and he stared at my chest the whole ride to school and while we were standing there waiting to get off the bus at school he says, “I like sitting next to you watching those bounce” as he winked and leered at my chest. I was creeped out but had no idea at the time why he was talking to me like that, I just didn’t get it.

Sex was nothing I had ever heard of or knew anything about. I just kept my distance from him after that, we’ll call it a wide berth. If I had known at the time the kind of power these girls had, I would’ve been hell on wheels I’m sure but being a naive nerd allowed me to enjoy my innocence a little longer and that’s not really a luxury kids have today.

Everything is about sex, everything. Ads on tv, sitcoms, cartoons-no matter what you’re watching there’s gonna be an ad at some point selling something with sex and if its not in the ads its in the shows. You have to explain these things to your kids a lot younger and if you don’t you stunt their social growth.

I’ve already discussed sex and drugs and drinking with my son who is 12, did all that around 9 or 10 and have had an open dialogue about it since. I tell him about girls though, boy do I warn him about girls, we can be bitches, but some of the chicks out there are crazy and manipulative and I don’t want him falling victim to that kind of drama…I have sisters and I know what drama is, my husband is fortunate that I lack the flair for it.

Anyways, all those pictures made me reminisce to a sweeter time when I could just waste away the day playing. I miss my sisters and our long days of hanging out, playing and getting in trouble, running around in the backyard. I miss spending a whole day just reading a book.

We all say it at some point. Those were the days…

Tags: childhood, innocence, memories, pictures, scrapbook