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Can you look at yourself in the mirror? Or, better question, when was the last time you looked at yourself in the mirror?

Are you in that place where you look at it if you’re doing something, like putting on makeup, but never just to look at yourself?

I’ve been where you are. I’ve been in that place where my favorite movie was about a divorced woman with a kid who’s ex cheated and is a complete ass. Why? Because I identified with that. I could almost feel her pain and depression and anger. I could feel it, it was mine, and it helped me to know that someone else felt like that too. Maybe not Sandra Bullock, but the person who wrote it maybe. Misery does indeed love company.

There’s a place you get to where that statement becomes more than a cliche. It becomes how you live. You want company, and you find that when you have company, you still feel terrible.

One of my favorite quotes from that favorite movie is something like, “Open the windows up and blow the stink off ya.” Our hero Sandra says, “Mama I always hated that expression” and Mama, in her infinite wisdom responds, “Honey, don’t make me say it.”

Doesn’t that say it all? The movie is Hope Floats. Great title, it says so much. Sometimes you can watch a movie that is soaked with reason, drenched in empathy and you still can’t get past your own misery. But hope does float, above everything else, it’s why you’re in this funk.

It’s why you feel bad, because you hoped for something better, and it didn’t work out for you. But you’re still reaching for that better thing, you just didn’t get it this time. The important part is not to stop reaching for that better thing.

There are better things to be had still.

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Listening to: Green Day - Are We The Waiting
via FoxyTunes

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