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So lately I’ve been making some pretty tough decisions in life and though I know I am never alone, I have kept many of my thoughts and emotions to myself and struggled internally for quit some time about the direction my life is taking. It seems in my quest for success, I have neglected to live. Don’t get me wrong, I have done my fair share of creating memories that will last a lifetime….some good, some bad and some are down right ugly. What I mean to say, is that I have suddenly realized in order to truly live you must impact the environment around you so much so…that even without your existence, you could never be forgotten. We all get ONE chance on this earth, ONE time for our voice to be heard, ONE time to change the things we know need changing, ONE chance to make a difference before it’s to late. I have not considered my walk thus far as an easy one. I have had many trials and tribulations along the way, and the only thing I am most certain of at this point……is that there will be many more to come. I have worked hard all my life to be a “success”…….whatever that means? Today I have decided to change my definition of “success”. Instead of defining it by possessions, social status, or even acceptance of my ideals…..I am going to define the “success” of my life by the things I will never see come to fruition. I am going to define it by the memories I leave for my loved ones, the contributions I make to society and the lives of others that will live on after my death. I am going to live my life from this day forward as if I were dying.

Most of you know that I have lost everything that I once built my life on……but it is in losing everything that I have really begun to live. It is the perfect place to start…..after all I have nothing left to lose and everything to gain. I am not sure where this new found enlightenment will lead me, but I am certain it will start with the enjoyment of those around me. The kind of enjoyment you get from taking the time to smell the proverbial “roses”. I hope that when I have left this world, my love and spirit will live on in everyone that I love, as those I love live on in me. There is not a day that passes that I am not encouraged and embraced by the wisdom and nurturing of two very special men that left their gifts behind for me to use. If I only touch one life as much as they have mine I will consider my life a “SUCCESS”

-Monica

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