I am trapped beneath the thumb of my employer. I am bound by the income on which I rely. I long for the day when I can say, “Take this job and shove it” and go to work at home, this has been my desire since I was a child.
I think several times I’ve gotten in my own way and hindered what could’ve been. But no more. Learning what I am is great and all, but how will it help me in the future? Will I carry this knowledge and use it beyond this place? I’m not so sure. I’ve spent a lot of years working my way into the medical world and now I’m beginning to think trading that in may not have been smart.
But then, I’m having a bad day, I’ve been talked down to, blamed for other’s mistakes and treated like a servant – all before noon.
This could very well be my just desserts for not sticking with some of the things I started. At the time I make decisions, sometimes they are emotional decisions and not necessarily logical ones. But just the same, I feel I’m paying penance for transgressions I may or may not have committed.
Is it worth it? I’m beginning to wonder. 😕
Rest assured however this is serving as a catalyst to my seeking a WAH job as a transcriptionist, which I have the experience for, just no luck finding a full time at home job that I can live off of…I will be looking though. Greener pastures and all that jazz.