Six Things About Me… Scary

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No mojo today folks, sorry.

I’ve been tagged by @Kionee over at and since I always respond to these I thought I’d throw you for a loop today. ๐Ÿ˜‰

The rules are simple:

1. Link to the person who tagged you.
2. Post the rules on the blog.
3. Write six random things about yourself.
4. Tag six people at the end of your post.
5. Let each person know they have been tagged.
6. Let the tagger know when your entry is up.

Everyone else tagged with this meme has been rather revealing with theirs so I think I’m going to have to follow the same trend. I’m taking a deep breath.

1. My mother married my last stepfather after dating him for three months and letting him move in, three months later he was found in a motel room about 20 miles away having swallowed his marine corps rifle and pulling the trigger with his toe.

That was and still remains one of the most devastating events in my life. I liked and respected him a lot and felt he made my mother sane, or at least he kept her off my ass. He had been a career marine and I had aspirations of joining the military at that age. He treated me like an adult, and at that time, I lived as though I was, I worked, paid rent and went to school. I was 14 when it happened and I’ll never forget the day we found out. I was just finished getting ready for work when our doorbell rang, I expected it to be a friend of my little sisters’ and when I opened the door and saw a police officer and a man with a white collar I called my Mom to the door. I’ll never forget the way she crumbled to the floor. I know now the issues he had and felt he needed to escape but to this day I still think of him as a coward, and a liar.

2. My mother threatened to kill me when I was 17.

Which was the reason I left home at 17, I knew she had issues and I knew that the way that we lived wasn’t normal, but I felt if I could hang on until I was 18, I would be okay. But I wasn’t able to do that, I still have a very vivid memory of running at full speed towards my room, with my mother hot on my heels holding a billy club over her head and beating down the door with it because I had locked her out. I had a dead bolt on my door and she beat that until it bent and let her in. Once she got my door open she saw that I had the phone in my hands ready to call the cops and I told her I would be leaving as soon as I could get my shit together. She made me leave my car there and I did, my Dad called me a week later and told me to come get it from his house, she had told him to come get it.
I have not forgiven her for that day, or many other things that happened before and since then, but I find myself at peace largely because I keep her out of my life.

3. I got married once, knowingly for all the wrong reasons.

I was 19 and stupid and thought that it would change things and it did not. Less than a year after our wedding date I left him and begun to chart my own path with my son. When I did leave, he knew about it and hid my son from me, telling me I would never see him again, it took a couple thousand dollars and a good lawyer to get my son back quickly from him, I knew he would not be safe with him. Some people just have no respect for themselves, and thus don’t have any business raising children. I’m no angel, but I always took every precaution available to protect my son and never put him in situations where he would get hurt. Which was far more than I could say for his father, who is now out of the picture thanks to my determination to show my judge that he was unfit.

Okay, now on to some great things since my dark and shady past.

4. I met my hubby on the internet.

I also believe this is not so rare anymore, we met close to 7 years ago on AOL, of all mediums. He still kids me that I made him wait a week to meet me after meeting on the internet. I too felt an immediate connection when we began to talk but wanted to be careful and take a little more time to get to know him. We only spoke briefly over the internet before I gave him my phone number, and we spoke on the phone for about a week before we met in person. The moment I met him and he hugged me in greeting I felt at home, which was a feeling I’d never known before. “Home” was always a myth to me, I thought it was wherever I laid my head, but now I understand the difference between a house and home. When I saw his picture for the first time I remember thinking I was way outta my league, but I’d see how far it went. I got lucky. ๐Ÿ˜‰

5. I get bored very quickly in my jobs and start getting anxious to make a change.

I worked in retail until I was about 20 and then I got a job at a hospital. I worked then in the medical field for about eight years and moved over to the legal world last year. I am already bored with it. Despite what some might say, the law is very boring. I find myself very conflicted as to my next move in life because I know I can’t just keep hopping jobs and hoping to find my niche. I have gotten halfway through a degree and can still change my major and go in a way I hope will make me happy. I think that writing (as I wrote about yesterday) might be the thing for me. Now I just have to figure out how I can, or want to make a living at it. ๐Ÿ™‚

6. I’m going on my first “real” vacation ever in one week.

I say “real” vacation because I don’t count the road trips to South Padre Island and Galveston because those involved me driving to them and only one day because that’s all we could afford. This vacation will be for five days, we just have to drive to the port and get on the ship. I’m anxious because I have a fear of water and i think we’ve all seen Titanic. But I’m going to not think about that very much and buy some Dramamine on the way down there, just in case. I will be sure to write about it when we get back and let you all know how it was. ๐Ÿ™‚

Whew. I never thought I’d get those last two. Thinking about the past like that threw me into a bag full of memories I usually leave tied up in a neat little bow, neglected in a dark corner, where I feel it belongs. So now you know more about me, and my dysfunction. ๐Ÿ™‚

Now I must tag a few others, as those are the rules. So, who to tag…hmmm.

I’m tagging Rachel @ Rachel’s Lucid Garden as well as:
Ruby @ and;
Debo @ and;
Dan @ DCR
and anyone else who wants to participate in this meme, I’m only lacking two tags, so I’m sure two of you that would like to participate will pick this up and let me know right?

Awesome! Happy Monday everyone!



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