Monthly Archives: July 2009

What a World

by MouthyGirl

Last night we were watching the History Channel, they were talking about the moon walk 40 years ago and at 7:30 it was preempted by a replay of the moon landing 40 years ago.

First of all, I can understand the conspiracy theorists who say it was all filmed in a studio, I can understand why they might believe that, but I got chills as Neil Armstrong talked about his shoes leaving an imprint, the moon dust sticking to his boots and soles of the boots.

It amazed me to watch it, thinking about the fact that my mother was 110 years old when that happened. 10! We walk around in our own little minds thinking so much of ourselves and what we are doing that we forget that realistically, we are teeny tiny little nothings in this universe.

The world from a different view

I’m learning a lot about the universe and the part we play in our world now more than I ever did in school. I’m more interested now so it’s probably not that it wasn’t taught, maybe I just wasn’t hearing it. It makes me think about religion a little, a few days ago the hubby said he could see why people believe the world was created by an intelligent creator.

We’re nobodies and the discussions that I watch on the Science channel and National Geographic and all of those nerdtastic channels that I watch, just increase the belief that we’re unique yes, intelligent life is incredible but are we isolated in the galaxy, the universe? I don’t think so.

What really gets me feeling woozy and small is watching The Universe. You can guess what it’s about right? Well, when they show pictures of the earth from what must be our satellites and they show animations they’ve created of the world, it’s a hard idea to grasp that out there, is way bigger than us.

Satellite view of Florida

I wondered aloud while we watched The Universe over the weekend if there would come a time that religion was truly debunked, proven to be wrong? My feelings on religion I know are not shared by a lot of people, I personally feel very strongly that each person should have the opportunity to choose their religion for themselves.

What do you think of the universe? What are your thoughts on intelligent life beyond us?

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Who Knew?

by MouthyGirl

I haven’t spent much time thinking about what life will be like when the boy goes to college and then on to be on his own. What will I do with myself? J and I haven’t talked about it either, though I’ve kind of kept it in the back of my mind.

When I first had my son, I couldn’t imagine life in 18 years, had no capacity to dream what that future would hold. Over time I’ve developed the ability to look a few years into the future but never very far. I’m one of those people that tries to make semi long term goals, a few years at a time.

So up until recently I hadn’t really thought about life after the kid. Is there life after the kid? I’ve lived my whole life either under someone’s thumb or caring for another person, I’m not sure I’ll know how to act with no other responsibility than myself, Jason and the cats. I don’t dare imagine it, the money we’ll be saving because we can live in less space, the growing mouth we won’t be feeding. Our house will be strangely quiet of nerf gun and air soft gun noise, and loud kid movies on tv late into the night during the summers.

I’ll miss him I know. I’ll miss him terribly because all of my adult life has been spent trying to make a life for him, a home for him.

In case you hadn’t noticed I’m going through a lot of self reflection and starting to see the end of this time we have together under one roof and honestly, I’m terrified of it. It worries me that he’ll be hurt out there in the big bad world, that his feelings will be stomped on, that he’ll be ignored or pushed aside, that his future bosses won’t see his talent for his stubbornness, that his professors won’t see how smart he is because he tries to be the class clown.

I never knew that being a Mom would require so much forethought and require so much energy for worrying!

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