Almost Was Enough

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I’ve put up a new theme, it’s more personal I feel, feels more like home. I hope you like it. šŸ˜€ Our topic today is regarding recent events that have caused me to consider my life and how I’m living it.

As far as my writing here, I’m taking a turn toward the the more personal, inner thoughts of mine. It’s been a period of time since I’ve written here regularly, I’ve missed you and I feel that I’m on a new journey, a self imposed journey to being a better person.

I’ve been guilty of secluding myself into my own world and ignoring what was going on around me, only to my own detriment. I buried my head so far into my own world that I nearly cost myself an uphill battle with Cancer. Yes, cancer. I was lucky and the problem area was removed and then diagnosed – and really we’re not sure it won’t return…it’s a waiting game I suppose, I still feel lucky though.

I didn’t have health insurance so I let my health take a backseat to my life, and nearly paid dearly for it. Don’t let yourself fall into a situation where you’re kicking yourself, or worse. It’s made me re-evaluate my situation, my life, my past, what I want out of my future and what I expect of other people.

I’ve always considered myself pretty strong and self reliant, but I realize I’ve been somewhat complacent and tolerant of things I shouldn’t have been. In short, the last year has been a strange period of tragedies, reflection and depression for me. I called it a funk but I know what it was. I’ve made a few decisions that have helped me to regain what I was missing and it will only improve from here.

I’m back in more ways than I thought.

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  1. More power to ya, girl. I’m in need of a major change, just haven’t decided what yet. If I was on my own, now would be the time to move back into the car and head down the open road to whatever new adventures may await. Soren’s kinda partial to living in a house, though, and I don’t know if I could homeschool out of a Toyota Echo, LOL, so I’m screwed there. I carry the insurance, so a new job isn’t really much of an option, and I’m locked into my current position in the fucking MAIL ROOM til next summer. So no change in career. I’ve changed friends, but now that I’ve been burned so many times I don’t want to get too close to anyone, so that’s out. I don’t like bars much, would much rather be stoned than drunk, so that’s out. Ugh. My life is so freakin boring!!!
    So, for the time being, keep writing me out of my funk, as I’m going to live vicariously through you for a while til it’s time to trade places, cool? šŸ™‚

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