You made me weak.
I hurt because of your cowardice..
I miss things I was used to and it’s your fault…
I look for shadows..chasing my tail looking for something that isn’there..
This is your fault and I wish you would cry..
I wish you missed me…
I’m bent on replacing you with someone honest..strong…
Strong enough to let me be myself.
You made me weak and I hate you for it.
Doesn’t that sound awesome? Ok..new fund y’all 😉 LOL. I used to watch Samantha Brown on the Travel channel..I am so jealous of her life. Going everywhere she wants..granted there’s hiking and shit.. I’m gonna do whatever if my trip is free…
So yeah..I’ve been bitten by the travel bug..wanna head up the East Coast and try to learn about this country from something other than a book. Touch the Washington Monument..stare in awe at the White House..walk the steps to Congress. I want to feel that vibe.
This change in my life has given me a new sense of yearning to explore. Its remarkable the things that come from such upheaval. I appreciate all my struggles..I hope you do too.
I feel strong. Do you ever feel that way..you feel like you’re owning it and no one can knock you down. I’ve had so many moments of weakness that this feels really great. I’ve been here before and I did it..some circumstances have changed but not enough to concern me. I feel like I left myself for a while..and now I’m back.
So I’ve been cranking music and enjoying my digs..still lack some creature comforts but nothing serious. One question though…what now? LOL only kidding. I have two objectives actually..I want to learn to play guitar and I’m learning chess so I’d like to get a bad ass set for my living room..
So wow..in the last month there have been a lot of changes to my life.. good changes. Some days are difficult for me and most days I’m not sure I’m ready to meet people yet..I’m ready to have fun..but am content to have fun with my sisters.
I’m settled in and need to get right to cooking and not living like were still in transition. Most importantly it’s time to start having fun again!