I put all your shit in a bag
It’s out of sight and I can be mad
I’ve never been done so dirty
What a lonely world you must live in
Myself, I live in Paradise City
On my worst days I still won’t give in
being cruel for the sake of doing it?
Living in a world with pain all around?
I choose moving forward, eyes on the prize
If memories are all I’ll have
I won’t idealise
How silly I looked! Oh, I must have
What a game you play
I was in the bag
Ready to go with you, all the way
and now, all that’s left of you
Is in a bag.
Twas the night before Friday and all through the house
Not a spirit was stirring
But one little glass
The whiskey was poured in the sniffter with care
In hopes that the warmth would spread here to there
The children were nestled all snug in their beds
While images of boxtrolls danced in their heads
And mama on her third drink, me on my fifth
Had just settled ourselves for a nice night cap
I found this in my drafts, thought it was adorable even though unfinished… Help me finish it?
It’s the ever popular hump day and I am planning my weekend, unless I’m forgetting something, I’ll be in most of the time – working on my future. I’m laying the groundwork for freelance work and a career change, that is in an industry that is sometimes seasonal and definitely a feast or famine situation. Fortunately for me, my skillset is vast and I can spread myself across several things to keep afloat once I “fire my boss”. It’s a five year plan currently – but we all know how these things go sometimes. I could get very lucky and my freelance work take off – getting me there faster, or the alternative which we just won’t talk about because, let’s be honest, I’m on that hustle.
I have yet to fully commit to something that wasn’t successful. Outside of human relationships of course. Work, how to give people what they need so they’ll pay me – I can figure out how to make people exceedingly happy.
I know A LOT of people that want more than they have – but rather than do anything about it, they settle in to complacency and piss and moan about it constantly. Ships that don’t come in, lottery tickets that didn’t win, jobs they didn’t get, grades they couldn’t make……there’s always something. Sure, there are some things we just aren’t going to be able to do, gotta make your peace with that and move on. I’ll never be president – you probably won’t either, if you aspired for such a thing, I highly doubt you’d be lurking around these parts.
I would like nothing more than to spend my weekend goofing off, I did that last Saturday and wasted some time that could have been better spent towards my endeavors. (But I did watch some pretty good movies, all told.) It’s been several years since I built out a website and I had forgotten how time intensive it can be..when you’re a perfectionist anyway.
Who knew I’d be planning a move to self employment at my age? I kinda wish I had…
I’m sitting in the park, looking at the bare trees and the ground maintenance people mowing the grass. This is one of the bigger parks in the area and it is gorgeous to drive through.
I needed the serenity today. It seems no matter how I try to stay mindful of the little things to appreciate, I forget them in favor of bigger problems that surely need my brain power to be worrying over them. Right?
There aren’t a lot of things I want in this life, but the few that I do, I want badly. I want a big love, I want to travel, I want to grow old and see what becomes of my son. The rest of the things I desire are just window dressing.
Last year was an extremely disheartening year, and while we are nearly through the first quarter of the year, I’m still shaking the after effects. As I predicted, 2015 has already been much better, thankfully!