I’m forward thinking..I take care of me and mine. That being said, I will not chase a man.. I expect a man to take the lead…to initiate and respond to the cues I typically obviously leave about. Now I recognize the complexities of tradition I bring to light but some of the old south is in me and I struggle not to call them “gentleman callers” though I guess that’s my beef right?  That they’re not gentlemen … Either way,  I know its an old point of view..

This has presented me with a problem. Men these days don’t expect to work as hard to get your attention..in fact….in these Jersey Shore fist pumping narcissistic days..men expect to be chased!  I will miss out on a few interesting people I believe..but I believe that the man does the chasing. Period. 

I should ad that this is the first dating adventure since 2002 or so…lol. Please discuss..I am very interested in your thoughts.

There have been few constants in my life, most of the people I’ve come to know in my life, I have since lost contact with, by choice or by time.  Aside from my sisters, one of those people is my Grandmother.  She has been the matriarch of the family and led us all quietly and often without us realizing it.  We’ve all taken her for granted more often than we should have.

Recent complications with her health have forced us all to face the harsh reality that we will lose her, and this is a moment we have all dreaded.  I’m sure that you can relate, most of you have experienced the loss of a family member.  It seems particularly difficult for me, I’ve looked to my grandmother for guidance in many ways even she didn’t know.  She has served as my mentor with her wisdom and gift for explaining her views or opinions with clarity.  She’s always been an inspiration to me.

A few of us in the family were together last night when the seriousness of the situation was presented, and we are mostly scared.  The last year has not been fair, I lost my other grandmother last year and my only grandfather in July. Spent most of my sons birthday at a funeral.  I’m ready for a little less mortality in my face.

It is possible we could still have a long time with her, that’s certainly what I hope for.  I know this post is depressing, for that I apologize.  I’ll save the “…appreciate your family….” for another time.

Thanks for reading.  Live today.