I wanted more out of my life than I have..that’s why I’m making so many changes ..what I was doing wasn’t working so..time to switch it up.

I was a wallflower that was shy and reserved and quick to reject new things. So sad. Now even though the urge strikes me not to talk to this person..not to say that thing..not to watch that scary movie…stop laughing so loud..I push past it and just do it and it feels so foreign to do these things and say those words…not at all like me. 

And that’s the point.

I’m getting another new tattoo…..to pay homage to my paternal grandmother who called me Sam..she is the only one who ever did and I loved her…love her dearly.

I miss her everyday and I need to remind myself of her struggles so I can be stronger.  I’ll put in there somewhere RIP Wheezy ..cuz that was her nickname.

Miss you Grandma.