Much Ado About Nothing

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Living. Working. Living. Working. I’m getting a little bored with being a grown up. With doing the right thing. Kinda bored with being nice too. Don’t you ever just want to yell at that jerk that shows up to work late all the time and ask him what the hell makes him so special? Why does he think he gets to work less?

Don’t you want to call in to work sometimes and refuse to acknowledge that there is anything in the world you need to do other than watching your favorite show on the DVR all day? Let the world go on without you for a day? Don’t you want to tell the jerk at the store with the screaming kid that civilized people leave the screaming kid at home or take them outside when they start screaming?

In a few weeks we’re driving to Kansas for a wedding, the timing was good and Priceline is awesome when you do you research (seriously – do your research). Something different will finally be happening on the weekend. It’ll be a long ride in the car but it will be something different, a change of scenery, a look at different (southern) parts of the country, however short it will be nice.

I have an impatient travel bug with an empty wallet. It’s a damned sentence.

We’re in that class where you work your ass off, pay your bills and find that there’s nothing left. For anything. No savings to speak of, bad credit history from when the economy hit the skids and gas cost us more than our mortgage because the only house we could afford was 50 miles from our jobs. And a mistrust of credit cards, enough that we don’t mess with them.

The bane of my existence currently? My apartment. They don’t tell you when you lease here that if you’d like to park anywhere near your apartment, investing in a parking spot is a wise decision. Let’s forget I live on the third floor. My rent is ridiculous for the quality and they nickel and dime you to death. Our lease will be up at the end of the summer and I told hubby to buy another gun because we’re getting a cheaper place.

I’m being completely facetious. We live in a suburb of Fort Worth (near DFW Int’l Airport) where if the kids are tardy four times in a semester the parents get a ticket. The cops are bored, nothing happens here. We’re safe, not to mention everything we have is just stuff….that’s covered by insurance. I’ll sacrifice the rent and some crap in the apartment to fill space to have more time for road trips and the fun things that weekends were designed for…screw buying a house, why care about that anymore, the kids will grow up and then what will you have? A liability. It’s just another roof people, it doesn’t mean anything.

Don’t you agree? Isn’t being a grown up overrated? I didn’t know that it would be this boring. We get so caught up in the daily routine that our sense of adventure gets swallowed. Don’t you think it’s time to blow the dust of and do something? What have you been itching to do lately?


No Time to Waste

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I’m 30 years old and I am out of shape. Tomorrow, I’ll be going to 24 hour fitness to join, regardless of my phobia’s I’ve got to get healthier. I don’t have any health problems now and I don’t want that to change. My father and mother both have health problems and they both are large people, I have no intention of becoming part of that population, dammit I’m too young.

I deserve the confidence that I have in myself, and I deserve to be confident when I walk around on this earth, so I’m not wasting any more time. I have always felt there is not enough time in the day, and at this point there still isn’t – but I can sleep when I’m dead.

Hubby’s been working out at work because his job provides a gym, he’s very lucky. Right now, I own a minimal amount of clothes because I don’t want to buy clothes in large quantities while I’m out of shape. So I have nothing but motivation, intention and desire. Let’s hope I can keep this going. 🙂

Last night my sister asked if I wanted to go to the Incubus concert with her in August, and I said of course HELL YES!! I’ve NEVER been to a rock concert. Ever. I’m stoked, you have no idea.

So that gives me something to work towards, I won’t tell you how much weight I have to lose, but I can knock a significant dent in it by August 22nd. I’m going to have to get much more familiar with Incubus music than I am now.

I hope you all have a great Friday and tell me, what are you doing to stay, or get, healthy?


The Death of Music Television

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I’ve been seeing advertisements on VH1 for a new show called Daisy of Love. We all know about Rock of Love, with Bret Micheals. Ick. Then there’s Flavor Flav, the Bachelor, the Bachelorette, and it goes on and on. We have the internet; we have telephones, clubs, libraries, grocery stores, millions of places where other people, including rock stars and famous people, have found love on their own without the help of a TV show before.

What is your major malfunction people? The problem I have with these shows is that the people on them are hardly sincere; they’re going on a TV. show for crying out loud! They’re either aspiring thespians, overly dramatic during their five minutes of fame, or trying to use these shows as a springboard to something else. We now have celebrity reality show stars that are on other reality shows…um yeah – springboard. Like that show I Love Money where the contestants form alliances with other contestants and the closer to the end it gets, the more people turn on each other.

Do we not get enough of that in real life? Watch the news if that’s entertainment for you, there’s plenty of reality on TV to be had, without manufacturing it. What really gets me is that these shows have taken over the few remnants I had left of TV. In all their ridiculousness I’ve lost my MTV and VH1, both used to be channels that I could turn on in the morning and not change until I went to bed. I don’t have that kind of channel loyalty anymore. I can’t watch Headbanger’s Ball anywhere anymore, ahem MTV Fail! I’m stuck with pop and country music, they occasionally throw me a bone with rock, but there’s no metal anywhere on TV or most of the other music I enjoy the most. Thanks premium channels for forsaking me for reality show stupidity.

You know I wonder if MTV will ever get a clue and create a channel clone of their channel in the 80’s and early 90’s, when there was music all day, every day, and the shows were showcasing different genre’s of music, not stupid nonmusic related shows. MTV 2 didn’t fit the bill, Paladia or whatever it’s called now is mostly concerts-and I hate live performances unless I’m at them. What gives MTV?? You suck now, that’s what.

This is why I only watch one show, and ironically it’s a reality show. Hell’s Kitchen is the only show I make sure I’m home to see. At least that show makes sense, now that’s entertainment. All these shows with people finding love or turning on friends they make or doing outrageous things are old hat. Find something new, or better yet, recycle from back when I loved TV. TV is losing the war with activity because it sucks now!


Oh Hot Damn, This is My Jam

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Yesterday was a horrible day. Absolutely horrible. From beginning to end it SUCKED. The only small bright spot was my trip to Fry’s to buy a laptop – long overdue. But I couldn’t get my internet connection to see my new laptop last night so that all ended in frustration and cussing that I won’t share here.

So I thought I would share with you the music that cheers me up when I’m in a shitty mood. There’s not a lot to them, they’re mostly thoughtless music. Music affects me profoundly and sometimes all it takes is one song to turn my mood around.

“Metal therapy” as I call it, seems to be the best recipe so far for a bad day, I can get all my frustration out screaming with my favorite metal bands 😀

Today, it was very hard for me to leave the house. The thought crossed my mind that if today ends up being even remotely like yesterday, someone is going to pay. Then I realized that’s how psycho’s start down their terrible paths, so I turned on VH1 and tried to cheer up and put on a happy face so to speak.


So what follows is my list of music that puts me in a better mood so that I can face other people and not take their heads off. I’ve discovered, I think, that I am very passive aggressive, and in that, more passive that aggressive. LOL

Swagga Like Us – T.I.
Miss Independent – Neyo
Duck & Run – 3 Doors Down
Joker – Steve Miller Band
Walk This Way – the Run DMC version
Leave Me Alone – Cross Canadian Ragweed
Hell Yeah – Montgomery Gentry
In the Ayer – Flo Rida
One – Metallica
For Whom the Bell Tolls – Metallica
Back in Black – AC/DC
Grown Woman – Mary J. Blige

Those are just a few, if I think of more I’ll add them.

What are your best songs to cheer you up?