January 3rd, 2010
I’m sure you’ve all noticed my lack of attention to MouthyGirl lately, I feel bad about it so I’m gonna level with you. A few months ago I had a huge fight with the hubs because some of the guys he works with read the blog and told him some of the things I said. It’s not the first time, when he found out that I had a facebook account the same thing happened. As these things arguments have happened here and there I’ve felt more and more like I needed to watch what I said. Like I can’t write what I want and that has made it damn near impossible for me to write anything at all.
I’ve blamed it on various things like my lack of news awareness, which isn’t really true. Realistically it’s because I feel hemmed up. I feel as if I have to watch what I say here because I have little moles waiting to report me to the “bossman”. I don’t mind fighting for my right to write (lol) but I don’t want to hurt anyone and I damn sure don’t want what I write to be taken out of context. It’s been a serious inner battle people.
I will say this, no matter what I write here, I feel that this is my personal space, away from the real life drama that unfolds before my eyes every day. When I write I like to think that people will make an effort to understand me, not read something and think they know what I’m talking about. My point is this, if you don’t know me personally, don’t try to guess where I’m coming from because you haven’t the foggiest idea.
We can all sympathize with one another, and empathize or whatever but to stir up shit in my family over something you don’t understand doesn’t make you a helpful person, it makes you part of a problem. A lot of the things I write here are said in jest, taking every word you read here seriously is a big mistake.
Ah, I feel better.
